Im a bad blogger

Its been brought to my attention that I have not blogged since april. That is seriously pathetic.::hanging head:: Well I at least have good reason it has been a crazy few months. My friends bridal shower and weddingin march and april, My mother having her surgeryin march then starting chemo in april, My brothers issues finally resolved a couple weeks ago. SO obviously my mind has been in a million other places.

So in that spare time to keep me sane I became obsessed with the twilight series which has become my escape from the crazyness of my world. It has kept me from loosing my mind these last few months.... I am sadly on my third time reading/listening to them and impatiently waiting for new moon to come out.

So lets see another good thing that happened in the last few months has been I finally god a new truck after 13 years of having our pathfinder. I loveeeeee my new truck. I got a nissan Xtrra that I have been drooling over for the past 3 years. Finally hubby gave into me and got me it.

Lets see other then that at this moment I cant remember the blur that has been these three months.

Lets see other then that at this moment I cant remember the blur that has been these three months.
So lets see in my near future I have a no doubt concert on friday (I love gwen) Then on sunday I am going to meet some of my fabulous nestie friends in Philly!! Cant wait gonna have so much fun!! Then next saturday is my birthday. No major plans but I know it will involve cake and fireworks (its my one bday rule) Then after that starts my crazy summer with kiddies off from school. Hopefully Mr sun will cooperate and come out more often so there can be more trips to the beach club...
So I think thats says it all for now. I have brought you all up to date on the life of KDH and will now promise to be a better blogger. :: clearing throat for my "girls next door":: <3

Happy Easter!!

Hope everyone have a wonderful easter. I am off this morning to go visit my mother and my brother. Its gonna be rough over there mom is got a little depression going on. My mother has always loved easter and she even decorates for it and everything. Still to this day she got us easter baskets. So this year she has not been able to do any decorating and go shopping so that has even lowered her spirits this year. I feel really bad for her. SHe is alone all day and still cannot go out. She is just in a rut that she wishes she would feel better already. Anywho hopefully she will snap out of it soon or I am going to need the zanax prescription...
Then this afternoon we are off to the in-laws house. It is just going to be the 4 of us her kids are off somewhere else. Also its there anniversary so it will be even more weird. So thats my day.
Hope everyone has a great easter and dont forget to count your blessings when spending the day with your families.

Update on Mom

Well her surgery went well on Monday. She was in there for about 4 and a half hour. They had to take out more lymph nodes then they thought they would. They do feel that they got everything, which is good. Next morning Doctor saw her and everything seemed well said she could go home if she passed some tests, which she did . So I couldnt get her till later on the afternoon and when I got there she was complaining that she was very lightheaded and shaky. I informed the nurses who got in touch with the DR who revoked her discharge. Man was she pissed. All the poor thing wanted to do was get home and rest in her bed. Instead she was admitted again and was given and EKG which entailed shifting her bandages. She got over it finally and gave into it and let them do their testing. Then the covering doctor came in to check on her cause she was concerned about her high BP. She then proceeded to inspect her incisions and found that she had a hematoma forming inder her incisions. Ugh. So she felt her numbers were fine and didnt need to rush her into surgery at that moment to fix it. So all was well and they gave her Zanax to have her chill which was good for her.
Fastfoward to the middle of the night last night. She gets up to go to the bathroom with one of the nurses and she gets extremely lighthead, sweaty, and feels like shes gonna pass out. So nurses panic she is having a heartattack and call the rapid response team into her room. Her BP is through the roof and her heart rate was very elevated. They give her all kinds of meds to bring her levels down. Then she is transfered to the telemitry ward where she is monitored all the time. So I get there this morning after a 7 oclock wake up from the Doc. She informs me of what happened and that she has become very anemic from all the blood that has been draining. Also that the hematoma that was brewing need to bee taken care of but not until she is able to get all of her levels back to normal. I get to the hopital and she looks horrible, she is pail as a ghost sweaty and so nausous. I felt bad for her cause she still is unable to get comfortable in those horrible beds and she can only lay on her back. Plus sick on top of it and the meds for the nauseous isnt helping. So now we are waiting for a blood transfusion to replace all the blood she lost. Then hopefully that will help her and then we can move onto the surgery. Thats it for now I will post if anything new happens tonight.

Limbo

Every get that feeling in your life that your stuck in limbo and you dont know how to get out of it or fix it.

OK done with my random feeling for the day.

Update to our family wedding

Ok so this was the weekend for our wedding in Virginia beach on Ft. Story. It was so very different from anything I have been to and it so reinforced going away is the only way to do it. So some highlights from the day are: Will add more photos of the base later!

• Bride showed up 15 min late not dressed and finally walked down the aisle an hour later.
• Minister who was the brides sister in law, was late as well since her daugter (brides niece) was sleeping and didnt want to wake her up (WTF)
• No photographer whatsoever, just anyone who had a camera and the table cameras at the reception.
• Food was horrible. Coctail reception consited of butterfly shaped crackes and baby cubes of cheese, veggie platter and overcooked crab stuffed mushrooms and someother misc. unknown fried ball thing.
• Dj played for 2 hrs out of the 5 and played 80's songs (like mc hammer)
• Dinner was mystery meat was supposed to be beef but it was like a overdone pot roast. and slathered in salty brown gravy and mushrooms. The chicken dinner was like a wind and breast with the bone in, again dry and over cooked.
• Bar was good :)
• Bridemaids had beer hiding in there ugg boots before wedding.
• Brides brother didnt show up because he didnt want to pay for ticket. But sent his wife and kid (who were the minister and the niece)
• My SMIL look like she was gonna pop out of her dress at any second. (youll see below)
  

I know it sounds like all im doing is complaing and being picky im not like that. It was jsut so different and so unorganized it was an eye opening people watching experience.

Our room

The bridal party:

Reception pics:

Our crazy Clan. Mike and I, SMIL and FIL, Step brothers and GF's

Step brothers and SMIL and my handsome mike in purple!!

The garter removal. THe DJ made him crawl on his hands and knees to get there and get it off.

Putting it back on was more disturbing. Instead of the guy putting the garter on whoever caught the boquet, they blindfolded the guy and then had him head toward the girl which they swopped out for another guy. They had the girl next to him and made it like was her but a hairy leg. Yeah it was as disturbing as it sounds. Funny but so different!!

This was the father daughter dance. It was to "when you wish upon a star" They are very big disney fans. Im not sure if it was the merlot getting to me or what. It was really hard to watch this since I never got a father daugther dance so it was hard to watch.

There cake that actually showed up to the church first. I didnt have a whole piece, I was afraid to mix sugar and wine.

My new Do....

SO what do you think ladies??

BEFORE

AFTER

Time for a change

Well the time has come to finally get my wifey hair cut/chopped. It feels a little weird since I havent been able to cut it for a year and a half. So it feels weird to be able to cut it now. I am still a little unsure but I know my hairdresser will talk me into it. I hope to post some before and afters cause I love them. Well ill post pics later.

know it all vent

Has anyone ever had one of those friends that think they know everything about everything even if they have never gone through it before. I have a friend who is getting married and buying a house and any advice I try to give her since I have been there and done that she shoots down and tell me im wrong. Then when I try to tell her the truth she says subject change. Buying a house is a big deal and there is always tons of hidden fees and things you need to know when buying a house. She completely disregards anything I say as nonsense and basically makes me feel like I have know idea what im talking about. Anywho thanks for letting me vent and get out my irritations. Shes just be so under my skin for the last few months.

Update on Mom

Well she got all her test back and both the Bone scan and cat scan of her body is clear and The cancer has not spread. Finally a little bit of good news in all this.

Snow Day!!!!

Amount about 2 hrs ago been snowing strong since them so Im sure were up to 12" now. Wohoo

Snow Drifts

Thank You ladies!

I really want to thank everyone for there paryers and thoughts during this really difficult time that my family is going through. It does mean alot to me to have such caring friends around me. Thank you again I do appreciate as many prayers and thoughts as you have.

Could I start this year over?

Yesterday may quite frankly be the second worst day of my life. First being the day my father died. Yesterday We (my brother and I) were told that my mother has breast cancer in both breasts. Wow that was the first time saying that out loud. Im still a little stunned and shocked but I needed to get it out of my system. Were not sure what is going to happen and what stage and all that, its still new and we havent heard from her doctors yet.
She had had a lump under her arm since around september and kept it quiet cause she did not want to upset or disturb my wedding. Then it was the holidays and didnt want to ruin them (christmas is her favorite) Then came the first of the year and we had to deal with my brothers issues. So finally she faced it and we took her for a mamogram and a sonogram yesterday afternoon. It seemed to take forever we were there for over 3 and a half hours. After they tortured her with the mamogram. They found that she had a massive lump in one breast and it had spread to the other. The radioligist was super concerned about it and wanted to get her in ASAP for Biopsy. So now is a waiting game to see what game plan we are up against.
I think that was the most difficult ride home from anywhere. All my mother could do is sob and ask why her, how is she going to pay the rent, how is she going to work, They are going to kick her out if she cant pay the bills, how she doesnt want to leave us and she will never see grandchildren. It was SO sad cause she doesnt deserve this. She has had nothing but sorrow and hard times since my father past away 10 years ago. She has had to work 2 jobs just to get by with rent and bills. She is 66 years old and should not have to be going through this at this time in her life. I feel so hopeless not knowing what to say or what to do for her. Her best friend died of breast cancer at the age of 55 and she saw what pain and torture she went through and she is afraid that will happen to her. Im just at a loss right now and hope things wil get better and I learn how to handle this.

New years resolution

So now that a new year is upon us and all the christmas clutter is finally away its time to focus on New Years resolutions. Ive done the weight thing last year so I refuse to do that this year. My focus this year as our first married year together is get my act together. My resolution is to get rid of my debt so we can hopefully TTC next year. Its absolutely killing me that I have to wait. I have wanted to be a mommy from when I was a little girl. I know that I cant at this time cause I wouldnt be able to afford being off the couple of months of recoup. I am lucky that I have a job that can incorperate my baby into the mix but its that initial couple months off the recoup So my mission is to work all I can this year and get rid of alot of my debt so we can live off the one income for the couple months. It just seems so far away to wait. I have waited for 12 years now for marriage and now the dreaded clock is in my head 24/7 and I believe it begining to drive me bonkers, I sometimes feel like im loosing my mind cause I know its there and I cant do to much to fix it right now. Plus all of my kids that I watch ask me "when am I gonna get a baby, now that your married" They dont understnad but I am constantly reminded about one. I am also surrounded by all these wonderful pregnant ladies and it makes me even more BOTB and kinda mad at myself that I have put myself in this position and now I have to wait even more. So heres hoping that this years New years resolution will be one that I actually succeed in getting rid of debt and haopefull TTC beforfe im 35.... Ok im done with my venting and whining
Anywho on a lighter note. Santa got me Wii for christmas and I just got Wii Fit to go with it and absolutely love it!! I am adicted to the hula hoop game and the super hoola hoop. That gets your heart rate up seriously. Got those extra holiday pounds im trying to hula hoop off. Im a little sore today from bowling like a maniac last night and my hips are feeling nice from the hoola hooping. I know it sounds odd but its a kick ass game!!!
Well time to go back to my world and work. Thanks for listening...