know it all vent

Has anyone ever had one of those friends that think they know everything about everything even if they have never gone through it before. I have a friend who is getting married and buying a house and any advice I try to give her since I have been there and done that she shoots down and tell me im wrong. Then when I try to tell her the truth she says subject change. Buying a house is a big deal and there is always tons of hidden fees and things you need to know when buying a house. She completely disregards anything I say as nonsense and basically makes me feel like I have know idea what im talking about. Anywho thanks for letting me vent and get out my irritations. Shes just be so under my skin for the last few months.

Update on Mom

Well she got all her test back and both the Bone scan and cat scan of her body is clear and The cancer has not spread. Finally a little bit of good news in all this.

Snow Day!!!!

Amount about 2 hrs ago been snowing strong since them so Im sure were up to 12" now. Wohoo

Snow Drifts

Thank You ladies!

I really want to thank everyone for there paryers and thoughts during this really difficult time that my family is going through. It does mean alot to me to have such caring friends around me. Thank you again I do appreciate as many prayers and thoughts as you have.

Could I start this year over?

Yesterday may quite frankly be the second worst day of my life. First being the day my father died. Yesterday We (my brother and I) were told that my mother has breast cancer in both breasts. Wow that was the first time saying that out loud. Im still a little stunned and shocked but I needed to get it out of my system. Were not sure what is going to happen and what stage and all that, its still new and we havent heard from her doctors yet.
She had had a lump under her arm since around september and kept it quiet cause she did not want to upset or disturb my wedding. Then it was the holidays and didnt want to ruin them (christmas is her favorite) Then came the first of the year and we had to deal with my brothers issues. So finally she faced it and we took her for a mamogram and a sonogram yesterday afternoon. It seemed to take forever we were there for over 3 and a half hours. After they tortured her with the mamogram. They found that she had a massive lump in one breast and it had spread to the other. The radioligist was super concerned about it and wanted to get her in ASAP for Biopsy. So now is a waiting game to see what game plan we are up against.
I think that was the most difficult ride home from anywhere. All my mother could do is sob and ask why her, how is she going to pay the rent, how is she going to work, They are going to kick her out if she cant pay the bills, how she doesnt want to leave us and she will never see grandchildren. It was SO sad cause she doesnt deserve this. She has had nothing but sorrow and hard times since my father past away 10 years ago. She has had to work 2 jobs just to get by with rent and bills. She is 66 years old and should not have to be going through this at this time in her life. I feel so hopeless not knowing what to say or what to do for her. Her best friend died of breast cancer at the age of 55 and she saw what pain and torture she went through and she is afraid that will happen to her. Im just at a loss right now and hope things wil get better and I learn how to handle this.

New years resolution

So now that a new year is upon us and all the christmas clutter is finally away its time to focus on New Years resolutions. Ive done the weight thing last year so I refuse to do that this year. My focus this year as our first married year together is get my act together. My resolution is to get rid of my debt so we can hopefully TTC next year. Its absolutely killing me that I have to wait. I have wanted to be a mommy from when I was a little girl. I know that I cant at this time cause I wouldnt be able to afford being off the couple of months of recoup. I am lucky that I have a job that can incorperate my baby into the mix but its that initial couple months off the recoup So my mission is to work all I can this year and get rid of alot of my debt so we can live off the one income for the couple months. It just seems so far away to wait. I have waited for 12 years now for marriage and now the dreaded clock is in my head 24/7 and I believe it begining to drive me bonkers, I sometimes feel like im loosing my mind cause I know its there and I cant do to much to fix it right now. Plus all of my kids that I watch ask me "when am I gonna get a baby, now that your married" They dont understnad but I am constantly reminded about one. I am also surrounded by all these wonderful pregnant ladies and it makes me even more BOTB and kinda mad at myself that I have put myself in this position and now I have to wait even more. So heres hoping that this years New years resolution will be one that I actually succeed in getting rid of debt and haopefull TTC beforfe im 35.... Ok im done with my venting and whining
Anywho on a lighter note. Santa got me Wii for christmas and I just got Wii Fit to go with it and absolutely love it!! I am adicted to the hula hoop game and the super hoola hoop. That gets your heart rate up seriously. Got those extra holiday pounds im trying to hula hoop off. Im a little sore today from bowling like a maniac last night and my hips are feeling nice from the hoola hooping. I know it sounds odd but its a kick ass game!!!
Well time to go back to my world and work. Thanks for listening...

The original drama to new years eve!

So now that my morning drama with my brother has settled a little. I am now dealing with my original drama to new years eve. We are going to a close friends house that live down the street for new years like we do every year.
Heres a little back story:
They are our friends that went on our wedding cruise with us and they're son was one of our best men. So our friend "K" the entire time before leaving on the cruise said that she would hang out with my mom and take her places with them and kind of take care of her during the cruise, so I wouldnt have to worry that she was by herself. She made a big production how she would take her everywhere and not have worry about anything. That she better not bother us cause K would take care of her. Well the cruise comes along and long story short my mother spent the entire cruise in her room cause K never called or touched base with her to do anything for 2 whole days on the island after the wedding. I did not find this out till we were getting back on the ship the last day when it was pulling out of port. I find out that she was in her room for the 2 days in tears that she felt like the odd man out that she didnt get to see the island or anything. She has difficulty walking and was unable to do this on her own.
So after returning from bermuda I sent an email to "K" asking her what happened cause I was a little upset that my mother sat in her room for 2 days and if she didnt want to help out (her own idea I never asked her) then she should have said something to one of us and it would have been fine. I recieved an email back a few days later that stated "I couldnt find her and knew this would come back to bite me in the ass." Um hello Im confused if you knew if would "come back to bite you in the ass" then wouldnt you make a little bit of an effort to find her. For god sakes my mother was sitting one table away from her "K's" husband the first day. So needless to say I couldnt answer that email and was too upset to talk about it in person with her or on the phone. So that brings us to tonight we usually go there every New Years eve and mike doesnt know this is still going on. So we are still going there tonight and its the first time I am going to talk to her in person since the cruise. So im am little worried how this is going to go. Do I deal with it tonight if she brings it up and have an argument? Do I just say not the time or place? Do I just let it go and pretend nothing happened?? I dont know...Im a little torn about this whole thing so that is my original stree to this day. Im sure I am being a big baby about this but I was devistated that the first time my mother has been on vacation and let alone out of the country in over 30 yrs and she saw nothing. It was probably also be her last vacation as well. So it broke my heart to know she never got to see any of the sites and enjoy her vacation too. I know its all about that she saw me get married and what not but it still hurt me that my friend did this to me and her. If it wasnt for the fact that she swore up and down and made a big production about taking care of her I would have let it go I get that its her vacation too. But to just leave her high and dry breaks my heart.
So this is my drama that begins my new year. It better end tonight cause Im not having a bad 2009! Its gonna be another good year!!!!